We've all said "I love you" to somebody outside of our family at least once, right? I know I say it to my best friends all the time, & I really mean it. I love them! They're practically my extended family. I've also said "I love you" to some, well, not so deserving boys. But, in the moment when I said it to them, I felt like I meant it in someway. I know I said "I love you" to one boy when I really loved him like a brother, but I didn't tell him that. No need to run around, making wimpy little boys cry.

I've always wanted to save those three special words for someone who mattered, but someway or another, they seem to slip out of my mouth. I then proceed to bang my head against a wall, thinking, "Oh, God. What did I just do?" Okay, not a real wall, but I might as well. Once you've said "I love you" to someone, it makes you feel like you have to stay in the relationship. Saying those words is a big deal!

There is only one boy that I know in my heart I can say "I love you" to, and really, truly mean it. His love was something that was mine. It belonged to me, and I didn't want to share it with anyone else. I still don't, even though we aren't together anymore. True love is a funny thing when you think about it. Everytime I see him, I can't catch my breath. If he hugged me right now, I might pass out from lack of oxygen. He always makes me smile. What am I? Barbie? I could be from smiling so much around him. He gives me butterflies, and my fingers tingle, and I just... love it. He makes me high from so much happiness. Shh! Don't tell anyone. *wink wink*

I guess what I'm trying to say is, save those words for someone who makes you feel ontop of the world all the time. If you have a gut feeling that it's not going to work out, well, if I was in your shoes, I wouldn't say them. Saying "I love you", then needing to breakup with them is the hardest thing ever. I've said it to boys, then we've broken up, and my heart hurt for a little bit. But the one boy I said it to who I really meant it... when we broke up, my heart hurt for months. In total honesty, it still does. But at least I know I said it, & meant it with everything in me.

I don't even know if this is a blog, or just some little rant I felt like sharing with the world. Either way, I hope you guys got something out of it. "Yeah, that you're a total idiot?" Exactly.